What are you doing, at this time??? GO TO BED!
Oh my. The interview today went fine.
Gonna wait for the result, which most prolly will be out on Monday.
Whatever the result is, I will be happy. Haha.
See~ If i'm not in, I will be glad that i don't have to commit 9 months.
But if I'm in, I will be earning some bucks for myself! And my future bike, aka Sophie [may god bless that she can survive till i get my license]. Lol. Or else i gonna fork out a few Ks for my 'hubby'. HAa.
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I had a hard time today. Roaming the over-crowded Suntec, due to Comex, for.. many many hours. Window shopped around and there's sooooooooooooo fucking many things that i wanna buy.
Now tell me, do money drop from the sky?? o.0
I studied a lil on Orchestration. Shall start on Tonal Music soon. And most likely, i will be camping in Esplanade digging scores after scores. Haha.
I'm not afraid of anything else now.
Want fail me fail la! HAH.
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Alright. I wanna get something from Victoria's Secret.
Anyone wanna get anything?
I'm thinking of a private spree here. Do sms/email me if you're interested.
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Till then!! TADA. HAAAAAAAAHA.
Insanity is taking over me. I need a break!
LA!!!
as in.. L.A LA not LAH LA!
Understandable?

I don't know what's freaking wrong with me!!
Hadn't been feeling well lately. I think i may die from this. Hah!

Watched a movie yesterday night. The Sarah Marshall one.
Damn nice and well, really really nice.
It's funny too. Like how they keep wanting to show the dick for the sake of showing.

Anyway, i will be getting shit when school starts. I am pretty sure of that.
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I've been thinking recently. Should i get a Degree..? A business degree.
Ya. Overseas or local?
I god damn hate local stuff now. I wanna be out of Singapore.
It's like, i'm trying to escape away from all these. And i reckon that it's what i need the most now. To get away.
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I wanna get my 2b license fast! But i have no time for my prac 2. That's slow!
Haiya.
And I am going for this interview later.
Jitters!!
Cuz I am required to present their stuff to them, something that I am not sure of too.
So wish me luck.
If i manage to get through, it'll be a wholly 9 months.
May be good or bad. I hope it's fine.
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Till then. Wish me good health.
And, wish that i don't die.
Thanks.

Death Race is a nice movie.
I watched it, on Thursday night i guess. Midnight show always, I like.
It's cool. That guy is cute.
And well, I ain't afraid of death. Haha.
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Oh well, for my work, I know i din't put in enough effort. I can do better. I know. I knew it all these while.
I shall put in ALL my effort. At the end of the day, we shall see what are the comments i received. Another 'why din't you follow what i taught in class?' or something else?
Gosh it's tiring.
I am tired, of all these.
Alright. Enough of all these crap. This, shall be the end.
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I had my practical lesson again. And i passed. BUT, i wasn't happy.
I just can't get happy. You know..
And i think i passed because my instructor is kind enough to let me pass. If he was to be stricter, i would fail again.
Hah..
Riding in the rain, is.. WET. I'm all drenched after lesson. And stinky. The helmet never fail to stink me out.
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I had been having Edo Sushi as lunch for.. 3 days i think.
I love Sushi..
and i love my boy.
Cause he's the one who gave me a great, warm and tight hug after all the disaster. He's the one who hush me and let me feel that my existence is afterall, not worthless.
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On a lighter note, his dad asked us to go for a holiday, together~
To Thailand!
Next year, Feb i think. That will be a great place for me to celebrate my birthday, i hope.

I had the biggest laugh of my life today.
Yes.
Everything was just a joke, i figured.
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I know, MY WORK SUCKS TO THE CORE. Ya.
All the chords are 'wrong'. My instrumentation is 'wrong'. The harmony is 'wrong'.
Everything is fucking wrong. YA. It's rubbish. Should belong to the bin. Come on, BIN IT!
Oh well, I don't know. Everything's wrong.
So all the books that i've read are incorrect too.
What is music?
Music is nothing without freedom, that's what I've realised after reading sooooooo much.
I know, i should have put in more effort in my work. I know i should spent more time on it. I know it all. I know.
But what I am seeking for in my piece is, freedom.
The freedom to use chords, the freedom to do things.
Tell me, why Eb Major can't be followed by a FMaj?
Oh well, I think i know why.
Oh man oh man. I din't follow what you've taught in class. So i'm wrong. Haha.

Ya.. The books wrote it in such a way.
" Using this on that MAY sound wrong ".
And i got it in such a way.
" The chords ARE wrong, bla bla bla ".
So what's the correct answer, may i ask?

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Alright. I know I sucks. Okay?
But i just can't stand things.
I left after watching a few of my coursemates present.
Yes, I can't stand this.
"Yes you've got this and that".
"Okay I've seen this and that".
Oh well, so, if you din't get this and that, you're wrong?
Get what I mean?
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I shall just ditch what I've previously done. Yea, ditch all those effort and fucking late night finishing.
I MAY have unsuitable chords somewhere here and there. Alright get it..
I MAY have some not-so-good harmony here and there. Get it too..
Oh well.
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I'm not feeling sore. Definitely. It's just the feeling whereby people rejected your work, straight down in your face. I ain't no saint. I can't think in a way that "Oh i know I'm DEFINITELY wrong.. I shouldn't do this and i should do that and all sort". I'm just disgusted by you know.. these acts.
Oh. MAYBE i am mad at myself. For failing to follow.
Alright people. Have a great laugh okay? Don't disappoint my joke..
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Alright. I fucking hate where i am now.
Maybe it's really time for goodbye.

I have craving for Sushi!!
wooooooooooooooo.
I want i want i want i want i want i want i want.

It's not easy to be alive, and I don't know why I am alive.
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I made cupcakes yesterday, for him.
Ya. I am happy, he's happy. But don't know why, everything turns out badly.
I'm not feeling any really sian or whatever. But he just pick up every single sign of what he think it is and started pointing at me. =(
I don't know. You see, even if I am a lil sian, doing so will just make me even more sian right? If i'm a little, just let me go.
Don't know don't know. Just sad. Why will a relationship becomes like this? Like people pouncing at every opportunities to get each other.
I mean, sometimes, it's very tiring to be perfect.
I'm so afraid to show my real feelings.
Like if i show, i will get it.
It shouldn't be like this..
It should be like if someone's sian, the other person should try to cheer him/her up instead of trying to force a smile on his/her face.
I don't know. I only know that it worn me out.
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And today is fever day.
I feel like crying. =((
Gimme a break.

I don't know what's wrong with me.
I've been feeling very very very tired recently even after plenty plenty and plenty of sleep.
Slept too long?? Can't be.. You know when you sleep too much, you'll feel sick. But i don't. Just damn tired. =((
And I am going to school tml for arranging and MUMI assignment.
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Sometimes, I just don't know what the hell I want for life. I don't have goals now. I can't fulfill what i want now.
I want to travel to another country.
I want to live independently, i want to have my own apartment.
I want to be me, I want to do the things i want to do and don't have to worry.
But i can't, cause I don't have the money to.
Things just get bad when you don't have penny in your pocket.
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Singapore won Silver for Table Tennis in Olympics.
The girls achieved something.
Have I?
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I don't (oh i forget what i wanna say).
AHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA.
I think i should come back to blog regularly. With photos and all.
*Trying to keep myself occupied.*
IT'S FREAKING HOLIDAY AFTER ALL. But there's assignments to rush. =((
Awww. Holiday. I wanna go holiday.
A day off to M'sia can satisfy me too.
BUT I CAN'T~ SCREAM!
i don't know. I hate dmat. =.='' And i am just a passer-by in dmat anyway. Go in, get a grade (if possible), get my diploma (if possible), and disappear. HAHA
I think, i should work and earn some bucks.

lost..

I am so poor now that I can't afford a decent lunch meal~
='(( SOB SOB SOB. lol.
I'm serious!
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Watched midnight show, Meet Dave, at E!Hub yesterday with my boy and his best friend, Mr lam. Meet Dave is funny, but kinda draggy. =.=''
There's so many movies that I wanna watch~.
Cool. No money. HAHA.
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Anyway, had my first prac lesson yesterday. Today my whole body ache. =( Of cuz la, I din't pass. Nobody in my group pass too. Lol. Even the guy who seem to be going on better than the rest of us. Now, the uber sian thing is that I don't have money to go for my next lesson. Gotta wait till I get my allowance, which is the 20th, then to top-up and book for lesson.
I think by then, I will prolly forget all that I've learnt yesterday.
Damn that bike is like freaking heavy! Sophie is soooooo much lighter. =.='' I'm so used to Sophie's weight that the bike at school is like.. HELL to me.
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I am hungry. =((

Spent yesterday and today in school till 9pm. This is crazy man.
Was rushing like mad for POD. Actually, I have nothing much to rush. I don't know why too. lol.
And now, finally done with my first piece for POD.


Assignments Left:
Song Writing
Arranging
MUMI
REMT
POD piece 2.


See la. Stress. =(( Bonkers!

Anyway, Kevin, Happy Belated bday. =D If you happen to read this. Hah!

I once told my boy that when i got my bike, i gonna make it a Hello Kitty Bike~.
And when i google it, this is what i get.

Like WOW~. But the Hello Kitty Bike i gonna have is not pink! Is red and white.
ORIGINAL HELLO KITTY COLOR. Lol.
Anyway, I'm having 2nd thoughts on Hello Kitty Bike. It'll look kinda weird if not done nicely.

And i google further, I SAW THIS!

Wah. LOL.

o.0 I shall go be Hello Kitty racer. HAHAHAHHA.
And when i have my own car, i am SOOOOOOOO gonna get this!

Lalalalalalala.
Pretty?

And this is sooooooooooo cute~
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And oh, i so love MUSTAFA TOO!

Yesterday, I went to school for GEM.
The lecturer wasn't that bad actually. Friendly.
Did i mention that Sophie is finally back? She's stucked at the bike shop for damn fucking long.
Anyway, after school, my boy brought me to POSB to close my saving plan. And now they have a even better one so I'm damn tempted to sign up.
I NEED A NICE AND GOOD SAVING PLAN. =.= BOMB ME IF YOU KNOW OF ANY YA.
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Now i got my money out, i can go enrol already. Cheers. And boy says he will come and fetch me after lesson~ But i gotta put my lesson at the last slot for him to do so. =S
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Alright. So after the bank, he dropped me at Lavender MRT cuz he gotta work.
I took the train back to Tampines and i SHOPPED.
I went to Popular to get stuff for MV. Wanted to find 1 paper file, but they don't have. So i ended up buying 1 pack of paper files. HAHA.
I went to Pets Lover Centre to get food for my hamhams.
But i came out with food, a big wheel for my little princess (rem. henry's hamster?), and a pack of those hard treats for them to chew and maintain their teeth.
Yes, and i still remember what Kaiboon said the other time. What I no money already still buy good food for my hamsters.
THEN,
I went to NTUC. I'm carrying 2 big bags at that time already.
So, i used their trolley. LIKE AUNTIE LIKE THAT.
But at least i think i'm more like a rich auntie. =X
I bought Cheese, Red and green pepper, chicken meat, curry powder, pineapple and etc.
I'm making PIZZA!
And yes, I am lugging 4 big bags by the time i finished shopping in NTUC.
And i took a cab home. =x
Prepared and by the time I'm done, it's 11+pm.
Oh well, I waited happily. But when he's back, he doesn't seem happy.
So I'm super sad.
We went to watch Money No Enough 2.
So and so movie.
Sometimes i just think that local movie is CMI.
Went home and sleep....
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And today, morning, we quarrelled. =((
Yesterday damn sad already. Today even worse.
Ahhhhhhh~
Don't wanna say anymore.
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I wanna go Mustafa to shop! 24 hour 'shopping centre'.
Wanted to go long ago~ but he keep saying that his ITP will be there. So don't wanna go.
But anyway, he say he will bring me go later~
Oh well, i just hope that nothing goes wrong later.
I just hope that we won't quarrel later..
And did i mention that my headache is back?
=((